loosechanj

So. It's Jan 1. The "new" year. Not to me, I go by my birthday, so Year #35 started a little over two months ago. But there is something about New Year's Day. A superstition, if you will, that I have. I know it makes no sense, but I've always had this idea that how you spent the transition from one calendar year to the next would be an indication of how the next year would turn out. My dad told me this, when I was 11, and we were visiting his family over in west Fla, sans mom. They split up the next year, which is how this little meme got lodged in my young impressionably mind. Yesterday I was trying to get together with a friend who has a nice discount at a certain computer shop, for the purpose of a building a computer for other friend new year's eve party. Never got a word from him after tha initial email exchange in the morning. I'm pretty used to that, being let down by this guy. So I just went to bed around 11 and slept as long as I could. Woke up, checked in on IRC, and went back to bed because I was still a little drowsy. That was around 11 I think. Woke up again at about 2, had breakfast (3 jumbo scrambled eggs and 5 strips of bacon...I freaking LOVE bacon).

Tried a starcraft level I've been losing lately, and I want to get past it. I'd discuss tactics, and where I've been going wrong, but unless you've recently played that very level you'd just go "Huh??".

Anyhow, what I go from the 2003-2004 transition is the only person I can count on is myself. Which scares me shitless quite frankly, because I don't think I've been very sucessful. Indeed, I'm a pathetic loser. Now maybe that's because I've always tended to expect something more than apathy or opposition from my (snicker) fellow human beings. Time to forget about relying on other people. I've done the work of 10 men in the past. I'm a little out of shape, but I've done it once, and I can do it again.